finally & slowly..i've learn to accept things & let it go slowly..

i realise..im beginning to accept things slowly..
like the person whom i love him as a brother so much..
was called home to be with Lord..
i accept that his has no longer here..
i begin to realise..
not all things we wish to hv can be ours..
its just like when u learn to walk & u fall..all u need is to get up on ur own
& walk again..
its all thanx to casey..
the man who washed out all my darkness..
and lighted it with his light and fire..
giving me the warm and comfortable..
being with him is really different from being with my ex..
from him..
i've learn to let go things that hard to let go..
from him..
i know what loves call..
being love doesnt seem to be the same..
he has showered me with his love and warm..
and thats what i always wished n wanted..
may he always shower me with his love and warm..
till the end of my life..
even in the next world..
all i want is him..
yep yep..
i am greedy..
greedy for his love and warm..
so what?
im not greedy of his fortunes..
i love him for who he is..
thats my aim..
get all his love n warm..
and own him all by my own..
i would love to let him own me all by himself too...
well i dont know what made me love him so so much..
but seriously..
hes the man..
im really inlove with..
a man whom i always dream for..
i love his smile..
i love his laughter..
i love his voice..
i love the way he is..
his everything perfect to me..
his my baby..
forever and ever baby ^^
i love to cuddle n hug him so much..
its just too warm to get away from him..
love to stick around him..
especially climbing n rolling on him..
his so so nice to be hug..
tho i see him in webcam n hug my pillow as if im hugging him..
the warm always there..
aww..
what a lovely hug!!!
i love to be cuddle n carry by him..
spinning around with him makes me smile more
and laugh alot..
i love him so so much..
may our marriage always turn blossom..
till the end of our life..
just me n him..
kim & casey
forever..

Little Angel begins to realise...

mom is right,im no longer a little angel..im growing..
growing into adult stage..2 more years i will be 20..
now,im almost reaching my mature stage that is 18th..
still im like a little playful angel,need attention from friends n family
and of course from my love..Casey..
mom told me,when will i ever change into a mature girl?
but the truth,i dont even know the answer too..
am i still childish?
i think i am..
mostly bcause i always love to be a baby to Casey..
but i do always think abt my life with Casey..
New life..
New family..
New born child..
and all i know i cant wait to get marry to Casey..
and i really want him to own me as soon as possible..
My love for him is getting stronger..
No one knows it
No one understands it
Only i know that i love him more than anything..
saying abt mature..
am i not mature??
if im not mature..
will i think abt getting marry with Casey?
or have kids with him?
of course i wont..
ppl who arent mature will never think abt tht..
mommy never understand me..
only one person who ever knew me deeply now..
and tho we r still chatting in msn..
yet he knows my character almost..
i love him so much..
and his the last man i ever wanna be with..
till the end of my life..
someday..
someday ppl will know..
why i love him..
as he is so special to me..
someday..
my parents wil know what made me love him that much..
someday..
the day will come..